Friday, 26 September 2014

Hurt

I wanna run, but I'll get tired.
I wanna hide, but it won't solve anything.
I'm frustrated, but there's nothing much that I can do.
I'm torn, and I'm breaking down.
What should I do?
My life is messed up.
I wanna fight, but I'll get hurt.
Being in so much pain, it hurts a lot.
But giving up isn't my option.
To live is, though it already hurts.

I don't mind getting hurt.
But I do mind if I got hurt for no particular reason.
Getting hurt, is a part of living after all.
It's not like I wanna get used to the pain, why would I?
You can't avoid of being hurt.
It's like avoiding your own life.
Eventually, I have to face it.
Facing those things that make me suffer.
But I have no choice.
I'd rather die trying than die giving up.
The game of life, isn't always fair.

Wednesday, 17 September 2014

Time

Technically, time always go forward. But sometimes, or every time, time isn't equal for anyone although a day is still 24 hours for everyone. Why?
First, no one knows how much time we have until we die. Anyone can die at anytime. How does it sound to you, knowing that you have no idea how many times you have left?
Second, happy moments feel like it last shorter than sad moments. Have you ever experience it, or thinking about it? Imagine like you're chatting with your friends for half an hour but it might feel like just 10 or 15 minutes. However, something terrible which caused you pain that happened years ago, you still can feel it till now. You might think like,"I feel like it was just yesterday that.... happened, but it actually happened months/years ago."
Why is that happy moments last shorter while sad moments last longer? Happy moments make you "forget about time". When you do something that keeps you out of your boring statement like chatting, watching TV, going online, or listening to music, you have the drive to keep doing that so you might not care how long you've been doing that.
While sad moments always stuck in your memories. Although happy moments also stuck in your memories, but who wants to keep their sorrowful thoughts? You might feel like time goes fast around you, but there's something shielding you. You're the only one who feel like time always go slowly. You might also feel very empty, so empty that you feel like your soul isn't here.
So, that's my point of view about time. How does it sound to you?